I've made a decision.
For a time, I won't be going to Reality,
my youth group.
It's not that I don't like God anymore
because it's quite the opposite.
Backstory: I auditioned for the youth band with one of my dearest friends,
who runs stuff like that and I got in.
It was the greatest feeling I had in a while at the time.
Recently, I went back to church after being sick for a while,
the youth band is being run by someone different and new.
Okay, now you're up to date.
It was after some friends and I got together and prayed for my health
that the new guy, as I'll call him to protect identities, pulls me over
and says basically I'm not strong enough to be a leader
and to be in the youth band, you have to be something of it.
I'm not strong enough in Christ to be in the band.
He made part of his decisions based on
"what other people have seen and heard that I've done."
Yes, this was hurtful,
how someone can make a decision based on hearsay.
I thought about it and decided to suck it up, but then,
one morning I woke up super early and sure enough,
it was 16 September; one full year since I gave my life to Jesus Christ
and let him into my heart.
I couldn't get back to sleep, so I sat there in lotus position
and reflected on many things.
Reality has evolved in many good ways
but the majority, not so good at all.
So many people have changed
and drama escalated. I don't think this is what God wants for me at the moment.
To be surrounded with this negativity and bullcrap.
anyway, more later.
I'm gonna take a bath.
I'm gonna take a bath.
☮,♥, and †,
Lola Codeine™.
