hehe =^_^=

okay, okay, I'm back. and have I got some news, babies...There's a boy in my midst and I can't get him off the cranium :) ay yi yi!!!! I don't have a chance with sweet, sweet Aaron. He's gorgeous, a sweetheart and i feel like I can trust him with everything. Insane, right? We have everything in common: a love for good music, musicals, ouija boards, even the same ice cream! It's insane how we've become perfect friends so fast. I keep saying it's like we're the same person and I swear, it's like *MAGIC*. I enjoy our AIM talks, even though they end so short :( Aaron is so sweet but I know for a fact, I won't have a chance, but I could be wrong...I hope I'm wrong.

Sweet Dreams.

☮,♥, and †,

Lolita™

overdue update.

life is gooooot. :DD

SORRYYYYY!

Oy. Sorry guys, I haven't been in awhile.

My life's been so hectic and busy with schoolwork and photoediting and a whole bunch of shit. So much has been happening and right now, I can't say much because I have to go to bed soon. Tomorrow's going to packed up and dank as shit. :)

☮,♥, and †,
Loli ta™.

Subconciously??

Ugh, sorry I didn't post last night.

my mother went crazy and literally busted my door open.

crazy lasy think she's Wonder frickin woman.

anyway...

Dude... I think maybe, in the depths of my mind...I don't like to grow up.

I say this because lately I've been slightly obsessing over the Muppets. Watching old YouTube videos of old school Sesame Street, Fraggle Rock and The Electric Company. (Young Morgan Freeman= HOT.)

Me and Laura have been very distant and I miss her but things between us couldn't be better.

<3

gah, i'm too tired to write.

i'm out.

deuces.

☮,♥, and †,
Lola Codeine™.

BULL.

Well, today was the same as usual. I did homework and studied my ass off. I got to chill and ended up at home.

It's amazing, how people dwell in the past. It's hilarious. I'm seeing red, at the moment...

For you people out there who believe that I'm a facetious character, listen up.

I tell nothing but the truth to people. I do so because I would want people to speak truthful to me. To my face and not on some honesty box, behind anonymity. It's annoying and cowardly.

I'm making rough drafts for my plans for the weekend. I just hope that the OOML show ends around 11:30, if I'm lucky, so I can go to Rocky Horror. I love the Brewery, but the drama...ehhh.

I really hate North Carolina now. I used to love so much, but now, it's an incessant waste pit, a cesspool of scene kids, manwhores and players. First chance I get out of here, I'm leaving and never looking back.

I'm out.

Deuces.

☮,♥, and †,
Lola Codeine™.

This One's For You. =) (a note to a special someone)

Okay, this blog is for someone special. So you guys can sit this one out,

kthnxbai.

Hey, it's, like, 4:30 in the morning and I really can't sleep, so I decided to blog. But you were on my mind and it's weird, too. I would never do this, like, ever. I am way too timid for crap like this, but I know somehow, maybe, you won't read my obscure, miniscule blog, so I think it's okay.

Gah, I think you are an amazing person and you have a lot to say and I'd be glad to hear it. =) I'm a person who looks past the physical features of a person(because I think everybody is beautiful) and although you are quite attractive, it's your mind that draws me to you. I'd love to be friends, if we aren't already, and maybe hangout someday.

I really hope you don't think of me as creepy or whatever because of the things I say. I just have a lyrical and passionate way of putting my words when I really don't know how to say what I want to say. Honestly, it's really hard to use my vast vocabluary when talking to you sometimes.

Anyway, I just want to say plainly: you are amazing, cute, and if I had the nutsack, I would ask you out. But I want to get to know you better as friends, if possible.

Okay, it's 5:00 am and I'm starting to get tired.

Blog you later.

xoxo

☮,♥, and †,
Lola Codeine™.

Mixed emotions

Gah, today was boring as FRICK. I'm still sick, so my mom has quarantined me to my room because my little cousin Soleil is over. I couldn't leave my room at all. But anyway, lately I've been, like, REALLY bipolar or something. I've been really happy and I've been really pissy and I've been crying for what seems like, forever.

I've been happy because me and my friend Shaun B.(btw, on my blog, he is the only one who I won't call by his first and middle name. Don't ask why, it'll confuse you.) had reconciled once again and I've missed him. Basically, what stopped us was the fact that I was going through a lot of drama and I guess it was spilling into our friendship. We stopped talking then it was a random phone call or IM or myspace message and then, recently, I sent him a facebook chat message and he didn't reply and I went offline. The next day, I saw he replied, so I went on AIM and he was on. I said hi and he replied.

I'm guessing that established that we're best friends again.

Since then, we've been talking a lot more. Except for tonight. He's at the homecoming dance with his girlfriend of, i think, seven months, Kayla and he's actually dressing up. QUEL SURPRISE.

I told him, "WHAT??! You better take pictures or your cat's hillbilly food." *Note: I wouldn't do that. I love Rascal. ^_^

But seriously, Shaun B. and I have been through so much shit. And he knows me so well. He's my little brother and I love him sooo much. =)

For your entertainment, here are a couple excerpts from one of our AIM logs.

[23:44] Lola: I FINALLY GOT MY OWN LAPTOP.
[23:44] Shaun: Yay!!!
[23:44] Lola: kjsdlkjflasjdlfkjl;sdjSPAZZANDJIZZZ
[23:45] Lola: ...as you can tell, I'm estatic.
[23:45] Shaun: O.o'
[23:45] Lola: so you're being homeschooled?
[23:45] Shaun: Yup
[23:45] Shaun: I love it
[23:45] Lola: haha
[23:46] Shaun: I get to go to school NAKEY
[23:46] Shaun: I LOVE it
[23:46] Shaun: =DDDD
[23:46] Lola: ....
that was an image NOT needed in my brain...
but thankssss.
[23:46] Lola: lmao
[23:46] Shaun: I've been telling everybody that.
[23:46] Lola: hahaha
[23:47] Shaun: You 1 of 2 people so far to go EWWW

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[23:51] Shaun: I'm going to homecoming on Sat.
[23:51] Shaun: I get to dress up.
[23:51] Shaun: LMAO
[23:51] Lola: Shaun Boyle...dress up?
WOAH.
[23:52] Lola: pictures, most deff.
[23:52] Shaun: Lawlz.
[23:52] Shaun: Of course.
[23:52] Lola: yay!!
[23:52] Shaun: I'm a changed man, sorta.
[23:53] Shaun: Lol
[23:53] Lola: i can tell
you like to dress up...
[23:53] Shaun: It's weird cause I'm going to be dressed up with emo hair.
[23:53] Shaun: Haha
[23:53] Lola: 0.o
[23:53] Lola: pictures or your little cat gets it.
[23:53] Lola: hahaha
[23:53] Shaun: O_O'
[23:54] Shaun: TOUCH HER I KEEL JOO
[23:54] Shaun: Lawlz
[23:54] Lola: did you see Valerie's video?
[23:54] Lola: the one with the sockem boppers
[23:55] Lola: gah, that sounds kinky...
[23:55] Shaun: Lmfao

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[02:36] Shaun: I'm going to bed soon.
[02:36] Lola: you seem tiredd.
[02:36] Lola: sleep now.
[02:36] Shaun: I'll talk to joo tomorrow.
[02:36] Shaun: <3
[02:36] Shaun: Later Lola.
[02:36] Lola: <3
[02:37] Shaun: Lawves joo.
[02:37] Lola: later Shaun
[02:37] Lola: lawves joo x2
[02:37] Shaun: =]
[02:37] Shaun: Night.
[02:37] Lola: =)
[02:37] Lola: morning.
[02:37] Shaun: Bite me

I've been feeling pissy because I don't know, I want to not be in here. I want to be free. Same reason as to why I've been crying. Schoolwork's been kicking my ass, but yesterday, Brita, being that she's like my mommy, came over and she brought Roscoe with her. He has gotten so cute over the summer...last night, my mom let me hang out with him and we got to know each other better than just random conversations while walking in the neighbourhood. He has depth and he's really cuddly. =)

I really do not care what my mother says. I am going this upcoming friday to Rocky Horror, if I decide not to go to see A Kiss For Jersey. I probably will end up going to Rocky because I see my friends at The Brewery a lot more than I see my "family". I don't know what I'm going to do.

What do you think?

Ecch, I feel all icky and I need to think. I'm going to go take a bubble bath.

Deuces.

xoxo

☮,♥, and †,
Lola Codeine™.